Continuing on the topic of forgiveness:
(forgive: cease to blame or hold resentment against:
give up desire or power to punish)
Our Pastor did a series on this topic and these are a few of his thoughts.
Forgiveness is:
releasing someone from holding onto our hearts.
not allowing the negative experiences of the past to dominate the hope and healing of our future.
not allowing the past to dominate our decisions and behaviors so that we stay captive to the pain or discomfort.
saying from our heart to the other person … you don’t owe me.
Forgiveness is not:
making excuses or enabling
(if it hurt ‘say it hurt’… be real to your feelings)
approval or trusting
(when trust gets broken it has to be earned back)
not forgetting or denying
(oh that really didn’t happen or saying ‘it wasn’t that bad’)
it is not indifference or avoidance
(not caring or not admitting)
it is not a one time event
(forgiveness has layers)
it is not and cannot be without boundaries
(enough is enough ~ you will never hurt me like that again)
Forgiveness is not reconciliation (become friendly with)
(where two people agree to come to one place of purpose
as if nothing ever happened)
sometimes forgiveness is one sided such as through prayer
I forgive… then name a name between God and yourself.
The one forgiven does not have to be a part of that conversation.
Forgiveness is saying:
Lord I trust you to work on their hearts just as you have worked on mine.
Forgiveness is a divine act of God.
We are forgiven therefore we must forgive.
When someone has hurt us the only real way
to forgive deeply is to allow God to touch us in those painful places and allow him to heal us layer by layer.
It is a process.
It is not easy.
It is not to be done lightly.
Forgiveness is a choice.
If we choose to be emotionally healthy and perhaps even physically healthy
part of that health
is forgiving those who once hurt us.
Once it is realized by the child who is now an adult
that the way they grew up was not something that they could change;
the work of forgiveness can take place.
Grace (which is unmerited favour) is given when we realize it is not something they earned but something
we need to do for ourselves to heal deeply.
The child who was never loved or minimally loved with conditions
who was never nurtured and who was never valued
can learn to forgive but to fully forgive means also to fully understand;
that it never was about the child.
Parents make choices and whether those choices were intentional or not
children have to live with those consequences.
To fully forgive… is to finally say:
I don’t need them to understand why it hurt ‘me’ so much.
To fully forgive is to finally say:
“You are my parent and I wish you would have made better choices.”
To fully forgive is to realize grace can be given even when
the parent doesn’t really deserve it or appreciate it.
Someone once said:
Forgiveness is giving up my right to hurt you for hurting me.
My thought is:
Forgiveness is when we move from the place of retribution and into a place of resolution.
To fully forgive takes courage and strength and the will
to press on with peace in ones heart.
I pray that all of the adult children who are needing that peace
will find it through the steps of forgiveness.
A Rose for mothers day ~ {photo by Rosi from Dundee Oregon}
joining Deidra on jumping tandem on Sunday.
Forgive: to grant pardon to (a person).
to cease to feel resentment against: to forgive one’s enemies.
With Mothers day and Fathers day just ahead of us
a deep question has been circling my heart and my spirit and it has been with me for many years.
As I have matured as a believer this question has always remained a mystery to me.
How does one forgive a parent who fell into the role of being a parent
through your birth
but could not and would not take responsibility
to do it well?
Children have no choice but to live in the home where they were born into.
Not everyone was raised in a Little house on the Prairie or Walton home.
Some children have lived in ‘horrible’ scenes which would warrant them to be removed from the home that they knew.
Other children stayed under the radar of protective custody and continued to live under the
emotional and physical abuse by the family members who hurt them.
It is never the fault of the child when adults chose to do harmful things.
Children can live and actually survive when it is only a house with four walls covered by a roof
but with no real relationships inside those walls.
Let’s be real honest for a moment.
Mothers day and Fathers day are not ‘hallmark’ moments for a lot of these children.
Parents make bad choices and continue to make bad choices when they don’t choose to learn
the fundamental issues of being an adult.
Unless one is searching and seeking there are no instructions given to someone
who find themselves in the role of being a new parent.
The adult no matter how old they are is always the one responsible.
Schools will often teach how to prevent making children not what to do or how to act when it happens.
One can become a parent at a very early age and in nine short months a person is radically changed from a non parent to a parent status.
Some people take this very seriously and others do not.
Most new parents are not aware of what to do with a new little person in their home.
There isn’t even a card that reads: “this is who you should call…if you have questions or need advise”.
They learn how to transition into a mother and a father role in the hours and days and months to follow
with little training and little encouragement.
It is my belief that being a parent is one of the few ‘tests’ of real selfishness.
Nothing can prepare you to become a patient parent
at two am when the screaming won’t stop or the diapers won’t end.
No class tells you how frustrating it is when laundry is piling up and
all you want to do is cry.
No class ever trains you how to push past the fatigue
when all you want to do is take a long nap.
Did you ever take a drivers ed class?
Remember when they went into full details of what car wrecks will look like if one doesn’t be careful.
Remember when they went into full details of how drunk driving hurts all those who are involved.
They required you to know the rules and regulations and what would happen if you failed
those rules.
No one told you what would happen if you didn’t take care of your child
emotionally, physically and spiritually.
There were no classes that graded your ability to look beyond yourself and
test your rate of selfishness.
Nothing can prepare you.
No class ever trains you about the exhaustion of being a parent.
It is dangerous to place an innocent child into the hands of someone who does not get it.
Most of us didn’t get it right away
but we did our best to learn our new reality.
That babies need fed, bathed and nurtured 24 hours a day and
if you do get a small break you are one of the fortunate ones.
No class ever trains you on how to stay mature and focused and
not be distracted or selfish when caring for a little one.
I will go further and say no class ever trains you on what to say
when your little one looks up and asks you,
“am I pretty or special or do you love me?”
A mature parent will move into that role easily and say to them
“of course I love you, of course you are beautiful, of course you are very special to me.”
Some parents can never do that.
Never.
There is no bank of emotional encouragement that they can withdraw from
for another.
There is no “I love you this much” … in their hearts.
They begin as a new parent disengaged and they stay that way.
Perhaps they love somewhere in their hearts.
Perhaps they only love themselves.
For those who are ‘grown up now’ and who were were raised in these kind of homes
mothers day and fathers day are one of the most difficult holidays for them.
They do not make cards that say:
“Thank you for the broken heart, it’s taken me years to get over it.”
Or “Thank you for giving me reasons to spend many years in therapy trying to heal from my wounds.”
Or “I am finally realizing that it never was about me… it was about you and your inability to love me”.
They do not make cards that are meant for those parents
who could never and would never
give the unconditional love that all children deserve.
For the adult child who never lived on Walton’s mountain or little house on the prairie valley
this is a difficult holiday.
They find themselves standing in the card section of a hallmark store with tears falling down their frozen cheeks and they wonder ‘what it would be like to have the other story’ as a reality.
There are no cards for their life experiences.
On this Mothers day can we remember as we look around in church or other settings
that not all families are equal.
Some families didn’t have the mom and dad and 2.5 children.
Some families only had a dad raising little ones alone.
Some families only had a mom raising little ones alone.
Some families had grandparents raising little children alone.
Let’s be real and realize that not every family is a hallmark ‘movie’ family.
Let’s be real and be ready to give someone a hug on Mothers day
we won’t ever know where their heart really is unless they tell us.
We remember the day we said goodbye to our mom O.
Two years ago the day before mothers day
she left us to go ‘be with the Lord’.
For over two years she fought pancreatic cancer consenting to have major surgery which required a difficult recovery in her 80’s then she added into the equation chemo then a new diagnosis of diabetes.
Each step along the way she had faith that she might win the fight as she did years ago when she had breast cancer surgery.
When she finally realized the disease was progressing to the end stage she agreed to sign up for hospice.
My husband and his family watched their mother deal with the horrible disease of cancer.
It was bitter sweet.
In the beginning some moments were good when they could talk about matters of the heart.
Then other moments later were very difficult as they watched her slow down and move closer to the direction of heaven.
We knew where she was going and she even told us, ‘the angels were nearby waiting to take her home’.
We remember when we sang songs to her and said goodbye.
We miss her often.
We loved her much.
We remember her always… our mom O.
{mom and dad O with Abby their dog}
“Do not worry about anything, but pray and ask God for everything you need, always giving thanks.
And God’s peace, which is so great we cannot understand it, will keep your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.”
Philippians 4:6-7
Joining Deidra on jumping tandem on Sundays.
{photo by Pamela from Oregon}
This is so beautiful… turn your sound on and enjoy the gentleness.
Make it a prayer for your heart.
I have shared about how we can learn
to risk~ to trust~ to love and to hope.
Now we can learn to rest and be still.
Always be ready to answer everyone who asks you to explain about the hope you have.
~ 1 Peter 3:15, {new century version} ~
The hope you have.
Dictionary.com says that hope means:
the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best.
a particular instance of feeling as in the hope of winning.
a person or thing in which expectations are centered.
something that is hoped for.
to look forward to with desire and reasonable confidence.
to have a wish.
to trust, expect, or believe.
In the Psalms it talks about hope.
Psalm 16:9
So I rejoice and am glad. Even my body has hope.
Psalm 19:14
I hope my words and thoughts please you. Lord, you are my rock, the one who saves me.
Psalm 25:21
My hope is in you, so may goodness and honesty guard me.
Psalm 31:24
All you who put your hope in the Lord be strong and brave.
Psalm 33:20
So our hope is in the Lord. He is our help, our shield to protect us.
Psalm 33:22
Lord, show your love to us as we put our hope in you.
Psalm 39:7
So, Lord, what hope do I have? you are my hope.
Psalm 62:5
I find rest in God; only he gives me hope.
Psalm 71:5
Lord, you are my hope. Lord, I have trusted you since I was young.
Psalm 71:14
But I will always have hope and will praise you more and more.
Psalm 119:114
You are my hiding place and my shield; I hope in your word.
Psalm 119: 147
I wake up early in the morning and cry out. I hope in your word.
As you can see hope is found over and over in the bible.
There are many more examples not shared in this writing it would be a great word study to do when time allows it.
The point is:
Following up on my last few writings.
I have been doing a lot of thinking and it feels to me
that to trust, to risk, or to love is equal to hope.
For when we hope for something it is a good feeling and it is positive, it is with great anticipation and it is also relational.
In our walk with each other we learn to trust within relationships,
we also learn to risk and to love and that can be hard to do when hurt has been a theme for us.
Then finally we learn to hope.
I think it has to be the last for some of us.
In the end what really matters is our ability to:
Always be ready to answer everyone who asks you to explain about the hope you have.
~ 1 Peter 3:15
This is a wonderful… worshipful song…and of course I love the beach sunset…sit back and enjoy the message. It is on many levels.
Marriage ~ Friendship ~ whatever you want to make of it.
The message is simple and pure.
Simplicity
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