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Still waiting

We still wait in anticipation of the news from the MRI done last Friday.
This Friday there is a biopsy scheduled.
Lord we ask for wisdom for the doctors
and peace to come and rest into our hearts.
Where there is anxiety and fear
fill us with calm and faithfulness.
Where there is a restless spirit
give us restful sleep.
Help us to know
You are in all things.
You work through all things.
You are the great healer and
we know you can heal
if you desire it and it is your will.
Thank you ahead of time for whatever
you lay at our feet
help us to be willing to open our hands and accept.
Whatever the outcome is
let us learn the lesson and remain faithful.
You are a God who listens to the cries of our hearts
and we thank you for being so near to us.

Thoughts in a hospital

Learning to trust is not the hardest part
The waiting is hard
The silence
The not knowing
The test pushed back another half hour
Anxiety trying to rise while numbness pushes it back.
There is nothing I can do
but trust
I have questions. Lots of them.
I have worries and concerns.
I could have fear
but I choose to trust.
God is bigger than our circumstance
and
He ordains it all and approves of it all
for a purpose far greater than we can know.
Is it to show our faithfulness?
Is it to test our belief?
Is it for others to watch and observe
our behaviors actions and attitudes?
Do I dare ask why?
GOD could say why not?
Even Job was tested beyond what was acceptable for many
and our past year has been a test for each of us
in many different ways.

I am silent
as I listen to the reassuring voice that let’s me know
nothing happens without a reason
without a purpose
without a bigger plan.
I can choose to be afraid of what I don’t know yet
or I can put one foot in front of the other
and with open hands
accept ~
If this is for your glory then I choose
to relinquish my will and be faithful.

There are so many things in this life
we cannot control and this is one of them.
As I spin with the ‘what if’s’ in my mind
I tell myself to stop and get a grip
For the plan may be to test our faithfulness
in our journey
and in our God.
If you say you believe
what better way to test that belief than to be placed
in the midst of a difficult trial.
Lord give me the strength
give us the strength
the love
the trust
and the belief
to get through this next
season of life you have for us
whatever that may be.

(My husband went to the doctor on Wednesday for assorted reasons,
on Thursday he had a cat scan, on Friday he had an MRI.
The doctor pushed things through as quick as he could.
They found a mass in his liver.
We know nothing else.
Will find out on Monday the final results)

A decision to trust

You never know how strong you are
until being strong is the only choice you have.

Our lives
can change at any moment
when that happens
our choice is to trust
or not.
Today
in the midst of heavy hearts for many
we choose to trust.

Stop ~ Look ~ Listen

One can imagine ~
sitting on a deck out side in the brisk fall air listening to the quiet and enjoying the moment of doing nothing. 
The voices of nature and the stillness of the water splashing against itself is the only sound entering over whelmed ears.
So often we have to have noise in the air.
It would be good for us to stop and just listen.
Listen to the quiet.
Look at the beauty.
Listen closer as the season speaks in words we don’t often recognize.

Soon the quiet begins to change as geese fly overhead encouraging each other to press forward and on to that last winter resting place.
It is a distant call.
A migratory call. Almost a haunting sound.
A miraculous sound echoing into the vast sky.
When I hear them often I will stop and look up.
If I am in a car sometimes I will pull off the road to just listen to them and watch.
It always amazes me how they tirelessly fly high into the air and onto a journey only they know.
It is a God designed mystery.
It is a beauty that is almost too hard to describe.
For me it is a reminder that we are not meant to live this life alone.
We need each other to encourage and come alongside as we
journey through our individual paths.
Just as the geese need each other to continue on to their destination.
Each one of them listen and press forward and often there will be more than one
joining into the haunting call.
For us I think
This season is a time of reflection of what really matters.
It is also a season of choices.
I choose to enjoy the season we are in.
I choose to stop and look and listen.
I choose to perhaps take a walk or a drive and enjoy the colors God has painted around us.

Fall is also a season of change.
A season that leads into others.
May we learn to slow down and stop
and learn to look and listen
to the beauty God has given us.
May we become more thankful
for this season of change
and embrace it.
For when we embrace something
 it soon becomes a choice of the heart.

11~ 11~ 11~

On this Veterans day November 11th ~ 2011~
May we remember those who served to give us freedom
give us hope
and help to restore our faith
in the United States of America.
Even though our country is struggling and sometimes not doing so well.
We still pray that God will Bless our America and keep us from harm.

To say we thank you might not be enough to those who sacrificed so much for the good of the country.

We remember ~ Our words are not enough ~
For everyone who has served and is still serving ~  We thank you ~  We pray that God will protect you and send you all home soon ~