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Words

Someone I know said some bad words against me.

It has hurt my heart.

It has hurt our relationship.

I am not sure if we are ever going to heal ‘the rift’ that this has caused.

I am full of grief.

I am full of sorrow.

My heart aches and feels foggy.

My tears pour down my cheeks and I am sad.

But I must rejoice in the Lord for

He will bring me into a healing place.

I am hopeful~

I am sad and hopeful.

I am feeling beaten down and yet encouraged to get up.

My heart aches for the relationship between us.

My heart aches for the hurt deep within me.

I pray for restoration of relationships gone bad.

I pray and wait for words to be healed.

God is with you

Joshua 1:9
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous.
Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God
will be with you wherever you go.”
Today I just want to remind us all that God promises again and again…
He won’t leave us or abandon us or leave us fearful or alone.
The verse above has a promise and a strong ‘command’…
an order from authority.
Dictionary.com says command is to direct with specific authority or prerogative, to be in charge of or have responsibility for; a single instruction.

God said ‘I have commanded you’~ be strong and take courage.
Don’t fear or get discouraged. You are not ever alone.
I find this to be a peaceful thought.
When I wake up and feel ‘down’ and fearful of the worlds unrest.
When I find myself fearing ‘what if’… I am told by the Lord God who loves me to be strong and take courage. Take courage means action…I must choose something.
I have had to be strong at times in my life when I wanted to run and hide.
I had to be bold when I wanted to be fearful. I did it then so I know I can do it again.
Last night on the news they announced that there seems to be a war out against police officers. Quoting that 11 have been shot nationwide in 24 hours. My son is a uniformed officer. He is sworn in to protect and to serve. He wears a full uniform and drives a marked car. He is at risk everytime he puts his bullet proof vest on and enters his car for duty.
This news announcement is not ‘calm’ news to a mother. I have to let my fear go and realize God is in charge. The angels are with him and God will protect him and all the others in uniform.
I am glad he promises so much. It feels good to know we are not alone.
Not left to fight our battles on our own.
That God cares enough to promise the Lord God will be with you wherever you go.
How are you feeling today~ can you be strong and take courage with me as we read about the unrest and the worlds dangers.
Can we know deep in our hearts…that God is with us?

The Lord says I will

Psalm 91:14-16
“Because he loves me.” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

I read this today and really wanted to share a few things about it.
God promises to rescue us.
Have you ever been rescued? each of us have a story… I am sure…
of days that were tumultuous when God restored peace in the midst of the storm.
God promises to protect us.
Have you ever felt protected in a powerful way?
When you had NO doubt it was HIS protection that saved you.
God promises to answer us when we call to him.
Have you ever called out and heard back a small quiet ‘I am here’… in the midst of your panic?
God promises he will be with us in trouble and he will deliver us
and not only deliver us but honor us.
Remember yesterday when I was amazed how he rejoices over us and gives us praise?
Then he says ~ with long life I will satisfy him ~
that means we won’t be searching for other things to fill our hearts we will LOVE him and be fully satisfied in his love.
Then within that promise and process we will see salvation for what it is.
The beginning verse says. “Because he LOVES me.”
Is that a condition? I think so.
We have a response and he has a response. Just as it is with any relationship.
Oh that we can grasp his great love for us today for this new year.
The Lord says I will …over and over…
the question is will we love him so he can do what he has promised?

Waiting

Psalm 27:14
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
Psalm 33:20
We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield.
Psalm 37:7
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when people succeed in their ways,
when they carry out their wicked schemes.
Psalm 130:5
I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits, and in his word I put my hope.
Psalm 5:3
In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice;
in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly.
Lamentations 3:24
I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”
1 Corinthians 4:5
Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes.
He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart.
At that time each will receive their praise from God.

We often don’t like to wait.
In the fast culture we live in where slow cooking is replaced with micro waves and horse and buggy replaced with fast cars. We don’t like to wait.
To stop and be quiet. To slow down and be still.
The word tells us there is a blessing for us when we wait.
To wait:
dictionary.com says: to remain inactive or in a state of repose, as until something expected happens~ to be available or in readiness~ to look forward eagerly~ to expect~ to be in readiness for- to remain neglected for a time.

Oh we don’t like that last one… to feel neglected for a time?
But don’t we feel like that at times when we wait and wait and wonder if God is listening?
I love the last promise that says; each one will receive their praise from God.
Does that really mean we get God’s praise?
I think of my grand children and when they do good I say. “Good job~that was wonderful.”
As I say it I can see them stand up taller and take it inside themselves, “yes I did good”.
Is God really going to do that for us?
This is just a little word study for us to think about.
Waiting patiently is sometimes really hard but we miss the blessing when we don’t wait with the right heart attitude.
How are you doing at waiting these days?

He is with you

Zephaniah 3:17
“The Lord your God is with you,
he is mighty to save.
He will take great delight in you;
he will quiet you with his love,
he will rejoice over you with singing.” NIV

This weekend we spent time with our grandsons.
Samuel is 6 1/2 Josiah is almost 3
and Seth is 3 months.
When I read this verse it reminded me of the way grand parenting is for us.
We rejoice over them. We take delight over them.
When Seth fussed I held him and he calmed down and went to sleep.

Quieted by love and kindness.
(along with his own singing himself to sleep which was very cute)

I love this verse and I think it will be my ‘years’ verse.
I love to think of how God quiets me with his love.
When I get anxious or overwhelmed I can think of the verse, ‘I have loved you with an everlasting love’.
He delights in me. In us. Can you imagine?
He rejoices over us with singing?
Oh I would love to hear the Savior sing to me.
I wonder if it was like that in the garden before Adam and Eve made the wrong choice and listened to the wrong voice.
I think of the old hymn called ‘In the garden’. My husband and I used to sing it together all the time as a duet in church. Harmonizing every note.

And he walks with me and he talks with me and he tells me I am his own
and the joy we share as we tarry there non other has ever known.
He delights in me
In you ~ too
Oh that we could grasp that delight to the depths of our hearts.
No matter what painful words are spoken or negative behaviors given towards us by others.The Lord Our God is with us. He takes delight in us and he sings over us with gentleness and quiet love. Like a lullaby he rejoices over us with singing. I so wonder what that would be like. Do you?? Just something to think about as we begin a new week.

A new year ~ A new heart

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you;
I will remove from you
Your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.
And I will put my Spirit in you and move you
to follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws.

Ezekiel 36:26-27

What a wonderful promise from God.
He really IS concerned about the heart’s condition.
For he has said, “where your treasure is there will be your heart”.
Psalm 51:10
Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me.

That is a prayer.
Create in me…a pure heart
Renew in me…a steadfast spirit
(dictionary.com says: steadfast is fixed in direction; firm in purpose;
unwavering; firmly established).
Restore to me…the joy
Grant me…a willing spirit
Do not cast me:
(dictionary.com says: to throw or hurl; to cause to fall upon in a direction;
to throw out or down; to part with shed or drop; to set aside or throw forth; to place hastily or with force to reject or discard).

Do you get it yet? It is a prayer…
Do not discard me or push me away Lord
or take your Holy Spirit from me.

Is that even possible? That He would take His Spirit from us?
That would be a scary thought.
The Holy Spirit is our comforter. Our discernment.
It would feel so empty without the spirit with us.
Lord God we ask for a new Heart … we seek a new heart…
for this new year.
Along with that we ask for a new spirit too.
Help us Lord to have hearts that cry for others
with tenderness and compassion.
Lord God as we walk in your word and abide in your truth
we pray that you will sustain us with a willing spirit
as you restore in us the joy of your Salvation.
May THIS year be the year of joy and salvation and hope and healing.
Are you ready?

Light of my heart

St. Augustine wrote one time:
“Light of my heart, do not let my darkness speak to me.”

I think this is a profound saying because in this time of season where greying days are the norm and the weather is not an invitation to go out and enjoy. The darkness of the day can sweep over our spirit and dare to remove our joy or our hope or our spark of life.

It is easier to want to wrap in a blanket, drink tea by the fire and hibernate.
In order for something to speak to us we have to listen.
We have to be quiet and be still and listen.
Let me lean in and tell you something:
Do not LISTEN to the darkness talking…
1 John: 5-7
This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you:
God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. If we claim to have fellowship with him and yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live out the truth. But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

So the message is this.
Darkness is not from God.
When our spirits feels downcast and sad and the darkness of the overcast day leaves us with a mood that feels defeated it is not from God.
We are to speak LIGHT to our day for God is light and life and hope and we stand in HIM.
Do not let the darkness speak to your heart.

Light of our hearts illuminate your love to us.
Shine it so brightly and so acutely that we will have no reason or desire to doubt or stay in the dark.
Light of our hearts
we thank you
for being who you are and for loving us.
Help us to stay in your truth
Help us to walk in fellowship with you
and help us Lord to keep our hearts pure.
Thank you Jesus for all that you do. Amen

Still resting

Still resting and recouping.
Antibiotics are working.
I am not as congested and not as ‘sick’ as in the beginning.
Still very weak and still coughing.
My appetite is very low food has been very minimal for 5 days now.
I have been sleeping 12 hours at night and still needing sleep in the day.
It has been a very bad bug.

Will try to get back to writing on Monday.
It has been one year since this blog was created.
I cannot believe it is one years old.