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Patience

by | Feb 1, 2011 | Uncategorized

Today my husband had surgery on his shoulder.
I am not the nurse type so I am needing more patience
more compassion and more confidence
to push myself into places I am not so comfortable in.
The hospital itself is a challenge with all the things that makes up a hospital.
Then the ‘pre-op’ tasks and duties they have to do.
I was standing out in the hall feeling a bit woozy.
Of course breakfast had to wait till he left for surgery and I had several cups of coffee on an empty stomach. Not a good combination.
He went in at 10:20am to the surgery room and was home by 5:30pm.
The day was ok. He did ok. Thank you God.
The anesthesiologist said it was a bit shaky for a few moments when my husbands throat closed up on him as they were trying to wake him up from the anesthesia. He said he had to put a tube down his throat to open the passage for air. That sounds a bit scary and I didn’t really need to hear that. The night before my husband said to me, “you know what to do if something goes wrong …” I said yes with tears in my eyes. Trying to not think of the ‘going wrong concept’. After 37 years I did not or would not want to choose a life alone.
God was with us today as He always is.
I am learning to do some care taking.
It will be a bit of a challenge for at least 4 weeks till my husband can finally move his arm.
Lord give me patience but don’t give me any more intense challenges ok?
How are you all doing this week?

Words

by | Jan 30, 2011 | Uncategorized

Someone I know said some bad words against me.

It has hurt my heart.

It has hurt our relationship.

I am not sure if we are ever going to heal ‘the rift’ that this has caused.

I am full of grief.

I am full of sorrow.

My heart aches and feels foggy.

My tears pour down my cheeks and I am sad.

But I must rejoice in the Lord for

He will bring me into a healing place.

I am hopeful~

I am sad and hopeful.

I am feeling beaten down and yet encouraged to get up.

My heart aches for the relationship between us.

My heart aches for the hurt deep within me.

I pray for restoration of relationships gone bad.

I pray and wait for words to be healed.

God is with you

by | Jan 25, 2011 | Uncategorized

Joshua 1:9
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous.
Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God
will be with you wherever you go.”
Today I just want to remind us all that God promises again and again…
He won’t leave us or abandon us or leave us fearful or alone.
The verse above has a promise and a strong ‘command’…
an order from authority.
Dictionary.com says command is to direct with specific authority or prerogative, to be in charge of or have responsibility for; a single instruction.

God said ‘I have commanded you’~ be strong and take courage.
Don’t fear or get discouraged. You are not ever alone.
I find this to be a peaceful thought.
When I wake up and feel ‘down’ and fearful of the worlds unrest.
When I find myself fearing ‘what if’… I am told by the Lord God who loves me to be strong and take courage. Take courage means action…I must choose something.
I have had to be strong at times in my life when I wanted to run and hide.
I had to be bold when I wanted to be fearful. I did it then so I know I can do it again.
Last night on the news they announced that there seems to be a war out against police officers. Quoting that 11 have been shot nationwide in 24 hours. My son is a uniformed officer. He is sworn in to protect and to serve. He wears a full uniform and drives a marked car. He is at risk everytime he puts his bullet proof vest on and enters his car for duty.
This news announcement is not ‘calm’ news to a mother. I have to let my fear go and realize God is in charge. The angels are with him and God will protect him and all the others in uniform.
I am glad he promises so much. It feels good to know we are not alone.
Not left to fight our battles on our own.
That God cares enough to promise the Lord God will be with you wherever you go.
How are you feeling today~ can you be strong and take courage with me as we read about the unrest and the worlds dangers.
Can we know deep in our hearts…that God is with us?

The Lord says I will

by | Jan 21, 2011 | Uncategorized

Psalm 91:14-16
“Because he loves me.” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”

I read this today and really wanted to share a few things about it.
God promises to rescue us.
Have you ever been rescued? each of us have a story… I am sure…
of days that were tumultuous when God restored peace in the midst of the storm.
God promises to protect us.
Have you ever felt protected in a powerful way?
When you had NO doubt it was HIS protection that saved you.
God promises to answer us when we call to him.
Have you ever called out and heard back a small quiet ‘I am here’… in the midst of your panic?
God promises he will be with us in trouble and he will deliver us
and not only deliver us but honor us.
Remember yesterday when I was amazed how he rejoices over us and gives us praise?
Then he says ~ with long life I will satisfy him ~
that means we won’t be searching for other things to fill our hearts we will LOVE him and be fully satisfied in his love.
Then within that promise and process we will see salvation for what it is.
The beginning verse says. “Because he LOVES me.”
Is that a condition? I think so.
We have a response and he has a response. Just as it is with any relationship.
Oh that we can grasp his great love for us today for this new year.
The Lord says I will …over and over…
the question is will we love him so he can do what he has promised?