I did it.
I opened my blog to more than ‘who’ I choose.
It is against my grain and personality.
Fear grips me and I feel exposed like ‘someone’ peeking into my life and not asking my permission first.
Most blogs are written so they can be read by anyone.
I am by nature a very private person
but I have been told by more than one or two
that my blog would minister to and help others but
in order for that to happen
the suggestion was for me to open it up.
They can’t be blessed if they never have an opportunity to read it.
In this process it makes me feel vulnerable and watched.
Kind of like someone reading my diary or journal when they didn’t ask first.
I know it IS MORE about ME
than anyone else.
I feel exposed
maybe I will feel ok with the concept in time maybe not.
My husband said to me, “If you wrote a book and sold it
you would never know who purchased and read it
so why are you worried about your blog”
I don’t think I am worried
just feeling vulnerable.
from dictionary.com
vulnerable/vulnerability
1. capable of or susceptible to being wounded or hurt, as by a weapon: a vulnerable part of the body.
2. open to moral attack, criticism, temptation, etc.: an argument vulnerable to refutation; He is vulnerable to bribery.
3. (of a place) open to assault; difficult to defend: a vulnerable bridge.
Perhaps it all boils down to actually opening oneself up for others to see
just who you really are.
It is for me “something to think about”
I totally relate! When I began blogging in 2007, I told not a soul. For weeks, even months, I posted & collected thoughts actually hoping no one would ever see them.
Then one day I waded out into the great blogosphere. I began to get a comment here & there (mystified how they found me, or why they even cared), but mostly I began to meet new friends – kindred souls – that love the Lord and wanted to use the sphere to minister. I have never regretted my decision to go public.
You've got a rich treasure trove here. I'm so glad you're risking vulnerability. Welcome.
Blessings,
Kathleen
And yes, I so understand that fear! I do believe your blog will bless others and is Godly and can do good for others. 🙂 I know you bless me.
I also understand how you can be freaked about others reading it. I started writing my blog for that creative outlet and my faith started oozing through and the blog began to grow and when I google something one day my own blog came up and I was a bit freaked…truly. I didn't like the idea that when I googled my daughter's band that my blog popped up…it was eery.
I do think the good we 'preach' by shining out light outweighs the other though…
keep shining your light sweetheart!