I was talking and sharing with my husband the other day about my blog.
This blog that was birthed through prayer and through a deep searching of my heart.
At the time I began this in Two thousand and ten
there was a deep grief that settled around my world.
Actually between my husbands mother being ill with cancer and relationships changing in our circle of friends.
Both my husband and I walked in a fog for months.
Grief followed me wherever I went.
I am not sure I could count how many times church became a place for tears.
Like a shadow reflecting off my bent spirit
I couldn’t get the grief to move away.
In the Two thousand and ten blog book some of the deepest writings took place.
God was making me move deeper into a place of searching and thinking and it was hard but also very good.
I remember every time I wanted to write the struggle between truth and confusion took place.
I would sit at the table with my bible open with my notebook and pen and paper and write prayers out.
What shall I do with this blog today
was my prayer before it began.
Each time God gave me words.
Each time He showed me the topic and the places to look and to research.
Each day I carved out specific time to listen and to lean into the one who was teaching me.
I miss that these days.
I don’t miss the grief but I do miss the deep
time searching journey every blog post took me on.
It is almost like familiarity has done a not so good thing.
Now I write and share pictures.
I do assorted posts then I publish.
There is very little agonizing over each word or concept.
Is it wrong or a bad sign when writers get too comfortable with their writing journey?
I am searching this week.
I am also waiting to hear for a new direction.
Not to change this blog that would not take place
it is too much a part of who I am.
It is a very important part of my identity right now.
This waiting room is a place for me to listen and to hear
what the spirit wants me to share.
If you are a friend of mine can you pray with me for a deep direction for this blog journey.
More than anything my desire is to be a place of ministry and also a place of hope.
I pray you find the answer. I know for me God has healed me through my blog and from reading others. I have found that when I leave it to Him the post that touches someone is usually not the one I thought would…so I am only the vessel…He is the one who uses it or not.
It has been funny to see a post that I would consider just fluff be the one that opens someone's heart…and usually emails are exchanged.
I guess I am more simple minded than you are…blessings as you find your way and direction.
Praying for you, ny friend. He will answer when you seek Him.
~Adrienne~
Saying a prayer for you. Strangely it wasn't long ago that I realized I was blogging for the joy of writing and hadn't done much praying except at the beginning. Thanks for stopping by and encouraging me on my post about mentors. It is hard to find mentors I am so glad you modeling it.
Breathing a prayer for you. I sooo understand what you're saying. Wait on the Lord.
Praying that God will give an answer and direction for your blog. I was where you are now…the direction my blog is going in now I love it. If I am not mistaken this direction took place over a month ago. For me, it was frustrating not knowing what to post or not exactly feeling satisfied with whatever i ended up posting for the sake of posting something. But now, I am satisfy and bless to have this new platform.
So be encourage and wait on the Lord; your answer will come sooner than you think 🙂
I started my blog in fall 2010, too… and it was also at a time of a lot of loss and another ordeal that was soon on the horizon. I haven't really blogged about those things, but in the midst of it all I've really felt God giving me stories of hope that he does want me to share. Some from my past, some from everyday moments that seem ordinary but somehow He anoints. Every time i think I may run out of ideas, He gives them to me…and sometimes when I have an idea I keep thinking I should do it and may put it off…but it always seems like when I go to write it, that is the best time, the words flow. All this to say, I know He will open His ideas upon you as you ask Him… He is truly our inspiration, as I know you believe. Write from where you are… in hope, in joy, in loss and He will "touch your lips" as He did Jeremiah… Your photos are inspiring too!