As the night continued our daughter was not out of recovery and as a concerned mom I could not leave and go home until I knew she was going to be stable and settled in her room.
It was close to 1:30am when she finally was out of recovery and I could head home for some much needed sleep for myself.
Since it was a work day this mom and new grandma had been awake almost 24 hours.
I headed home and at the same time I was leaving my husband was heading to the hospital to see our daughter and our new grand daughter.
We were grandparents for the first time.
We were on a new journey together and it would be a change for us.
I believe God knew it would be a good change.
One of my favorite pictures of grandpa and our new ‘little one’ is this one.
She had been in nicu a few days as her IV was gone and it looks like she was resting peacefully.
As a first time grandpa to lay your hand on a soft ‘tiny’ person and pray over them is an honor.
She stayed in nicu for 3 weeks needing different levels of care.
Then they released her to go home at 3 weeks and 3 days old weighing only 3 pounds 9 ounces.
When our daughter called me at work I was surprised she could go home that soon.
After 6 weeks of being home the time came for Sarah ‘our daughter’ to go back to work and someone just had to be with this little tiny bundle so ‘grandma’ quit her job and stayed home with her for three years giving her a good start at life.
We both needed this time for nurture, growth and renewed hope.
I believe God knew my heart needed a purpose to give and nurture and
learn to love again perhaps even for the first time on a new and different level.
Faith Elizabeth was our miracle baby ~
here she is at age 5 months weighing only 8pds with dimples and beautiful blue eyes.
Our joy had come and our lives were changed.
I was a stay at home grandma and loving it.
God was restoring my heart and giving me peace.
Home became a ‘safe’ place for me.
Our marriage was restored with a lot of work and we knew we were beginning a life together as grandparents.
Our story is her story.
She was our miracle.
So many things could have happened with her and didn’t.
God saw her and formed and completed her beauty way before she was even born.
Psalm 13913-16
Oh yes, you shaped me first inside, then out;
you formed me in my mother’s womb.
Body and soul, I am marvelously made!
I worship in adoration—what a creation!
You know me inside and out, you know every bone in my body;
You know exactly how I was made, bit by bit,
how I was sculpted from nothing into something.
Like an open book, you watched me grow from conception to birth;
all the stages of my life were spread out before you,
The days of my life all prepared before I’d even lived one day.
I enjoyed reading this. What an encouragement! I had a very similar story (except my now almost 16 yr old was born at 3 lbs 5 ozs).
It is still hard for me to believe they allowed babies to go home so little…she was 3lbs 12oz when they released her (a little bigger than your granddaughter) and told us to watch her on the car ride home b/c she might slouch down in her car seat and stop breathing. I wonder if they still let little babies like that leave.
Isn't it amazing how God can change your heart?