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February is the month of love

February is the month of love.
It is also Valentines day and remembering those who you love and care for.
I tell my husband to not give me something just because Hallmark tells him to.
Give me something when I don’t expect it.
When I am having a hard time, an emotional time, a frustrating time.
Not when I think he should bring me something, the element of surprise is always nice.
Although the flip side of that, is I don’t like to be surprised.
I want to know what is going on and when.
Mostly if we are going somewhere.
So he has on occasion surprised me with special things.
I think it is very meaningful when they do that.
Even after forty seven years of being together, it is nice to be thought about.
This last season and year was a bit rough with the recent health scare.
When you have a history of cancer, it is always a ‘cloud’ that hovers.
Oh I do my best to be positive, but it is good to be honest and to be true to oneself; especially when one is recovering from any kind of surgery.
It’s important to give oneself a lot of grace in the recovery room.
I am often reminded of how God loves us, no matter what we look like.
I have noticed my radiation history has aged me. I am not the same as when I began.
It is ok, just a bit unsettling at times.
I think it’s important to remember, God cares for us.
He loves us.
It is spoken over and over in the word.
We should never doubt it.
I challenge you today to sit back and appreciate His deep and abiding love for you.
Let the words soak in and minister to you. He loves you.
He LOVES you.
In the bible the word love is found 686 times.
As far as the fruit of the spirit given to us when we believe, the first word is love.
But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,
gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Galatians 5:22,23
February is the month of love. Let us grasp onto the overwhelming love HE has given us.

Today is my best friends birthday

Today is my best friends birthday. We have been friends for close to 40 years.
We have grown and changed and encouraged and prayed for each other, as we walked and shared.
Throughout the years, she has been the one person I can share openly with and have no worries about her reaction.
She counsels me with wisdom and thoughts. She is bright and educated and has a heart of compassion.
I used to live three blocks from her, we spent many hours walking and going through unfinished homes being built.
I remember me asking, “Is this ok? can we really go inside?” She had a heart for new building and yes; we did go in.
It was always an adventure.
She challenged me and also reminded me of God’s gifts given.
The first time we met it was at a bible study and she had been praying for someone to sit with her.
I walked in and said, “can I sit here?” It was a friendship that began and still is taking place.
Our boys played together and we would watch them in her big yard, it was so funny because my rule was no guns.
You didn’t pretend to shoot someone, didn’t even let my son have a squirt gun. I was against it.
Her boys didn’t know what to think of that, as they played cops and robbers all the time.
My son would take the pretend gun and point it at the ceiling, leaving her sons to wonder why.
It was actually quite comical and to hear her tell the story is even more funny.
As they grew up my son became a police officer. How funny is that, he ended up with at least three guns on him.
That’s ok I wanted him safe. In fact I wanted even more protection on him.
As we have grown and changed, she has had new health issues and I have too.
We pray and encourage each other and I am thankful for any conversation or any visit I can have with her.
We all know time is not always on our side, and every minute we are able to say, ‘Hi, happy birthday’
is a gift we both give ourselves.
I miss her. She moved away and it’s a three hour drive just to walk into her door.
We always begin where we left off. It’s like there has been no time difference.
I wish I could walk down the road and see her.
But the reality is, she is happy, in love, and is healthy and in peace.
What more would I want?
Today is my best friends birthday, and today get to say to her, “Happy birthday.”

Almost the end of the month

Almost the end of the month, January of 2021.
I cannot believe the changes in our life since last year.
The quarantine has affected many people, some who we have not seen for months.
This is the longest time since our marriage began, that we have not been in a regular church service.
We have watch online and it is nice and we receive great teaching and music.
But OH I remember the sweetness of listening to the music in real time.
When my husband had to be at the church early for parking, I would go in and listen to the musicians practice.
It was like my own little church service.
Our church is building a new building and will soon be done sometime in May of 2021.
It has been a long time of waiting.
I have realized some of our ‘friends’ have moved away or gone to other places.
It’s hard when you have little children and you want them in a church setting.
Our children were in church since they time they were newborns in the church nursery.
It was important for us to have them involved in a positive group of kids and leaders.
We were blessed as the youth groups were great and the experience was good.
Each one had a core group of good kids they hung out with.
Some of them they still see in person or by social media.
When we were in youth group they had no social media, we had to see people in person.
I remember so many hours on the phone chatting with my friends.
Times have changed but not the need to connect with others.
It is a good goal for us to do the best we can to reach out to others.
Almost the end of the month and we begin a new ‘season of birthdays.’

Today is my husbands birthday

Today is my husbands birthday.
He decided he wanted his mom’s pigs in a blanket recipe, along with creamed potatoes and peas.
He even picked out the pie and he wants to create the dinner.
Hey that’s ok it only leaves me the dishes to do.
He invited his sister and her husband and his brother and wife over.
So it will be the six of us eating a very old remembered dinner.
I only had one request, that he picks out hot dogs that are somewhat healthy.
Is that possible?
We went for a walk in the crispy cold air, trying to get more healthy and more disciplined.
Now he is napping. That is a good thing to do on a birthday afternoon.
If I sleep in the day time my bed time gets messed up.
He naps almost every day but he gets up before I do.
Speaking about sleeping, Oh my goodness we purchased a new mattress.
It is called the Nector and it’s basically layered memory foam.
SO comfortable and so interesting.
It came in a box, all rolled up. When you walk it into the room you lay it on the box springs,
take the plastic off of it and let it ‘grow’. It takes a few hours and pretty soon it’s thick.
I was amazed and it also came with two memory foam pillows and a set of sheets.
What a wonderful gift to us.
I had wondered what to do with our old mattress, by nature I am not one to dump things if they are usable.
So we put it on facebook marketplace and had a lot of interest in it, and a really sweet little couple picked it up.
I love to bless others.
She got out of the car and said, “God bless you.”
How lovely, and even though it was old, it was in very good shape.
Today is my husbands birthday, we will have a quiet day, a fun night and a new year will begin for him.

When you go through deep waters

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.
When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown.
Isaiah 43:2
This is so good to read and apply, for right now in our crazy world we have many deep waters to tread.
I feel sometimes like it’s a twilight zone since we started last year.
This new year has not been too much better.
I am in prayer for the political state of our United States.
I am in prayer for President Trump.
So much to come to the Lord about. We are not lacking information or topics.
I love the promise that whatever we go through God will not leave us alone.
I have felt like this in my journey through cancer, and recovery.
It was hard but not difficult.
It was not overwhelming but not easy.
I trusted in the process and in that trust I found comfort which is my word of the year.
My latest radiology review is not what I wanted to hear.
I thought the meeting with my surgeon would be my last one.
After looking at my radiology reviews she wants to see me in six months and then we will decide,
after more radiology pictures, if we need to do another biopsy.
I thought to myself, here we go again.
Some of my friends have gone into the process more than once so I am not unusual or fearful.
I trust my team and I trust the process and most of all I trust my God who will not give me more than I can handle.
Sometimes when we feel like we are drowning in emotions or in fear or in overwhelming feelings.
God is there with us.
We are not alone and when it feels like we are, that is when we call a friend or open the word or find some peaceful music.
The promise is real. It also says, WHEN not if.
So we will find ourselves in these moments, and it is how we handle them that will show our true strength.
When you go through deep waters, I WILL BE WITH YOU.

My word of the year came to me

My word of the year this year came to me when I was not expecting it.
I took a test that asked a series of questions.
Your word of the year would come up once they tallied the answers and they soon gave me mine.
Of course it is always a choice whether I want to receive it and let it be ‘for the year’.
Last year my word was rest.
Very fitting since I had cancer and recovery and radiation and then quarantine.
What else do you do but rest?
I find as I move into more of a ‘senior age’ group, I like my life to be simple and less complicated.
Not allowing too much to get me rattled.
Other than this ‘election season’.
I have very strong opinions about that but not today.
Each year there has been a word given and played out within my life.
Each one seemed to be very appropriate for the season I was in at the time.
The word of the year given to me was comfort.
Now I thought that would logically follow rest.
I also looked it up and the Bible has 88 references for the word comfort.
Philemon in the New Testament;
{for I had great joy and comfort in your love, because the hearts of the saints have been refreshed through you.}
That’s a huge compliment, to be able to refresh others through the comfort of caring.
Zechariah 1:13 from the Old Testament;
{And the Lord responded to the angel who was speaking with me with gracious words, comforting words.}
Have you ever had someone reach out to you with comforting ministering words?
Yeah it’s a gift and a blessing.
For Christmas my sister made both my husband and I big warm soft black and white blankets.
Talk about comfort! Then I purchased a new recliner chair. I didn’t want a recliner but it is what fit me.
Then last night was our first night sleeping on a new ‘wonderful memory foam’ bed.
Comfort. YES. A gift to enjoy daily. YES.
I think in the times that we are living in right now, and for the next few months we all will need more comfort.
My word of the year came to me when I was not expecting it.